I never thought I could...

I never thought I could handle so much pressure; pressure from school and people. I still don't have a handle on it. But no one really knows that I have these feelings because it is hard to see. I have to smile and laugh to keep from crying. I don't like to see my own face if I'm not smiling. God gives me the strength to keep smiling. I put my troubles in his hands praying that he makes it alright. God hasn't failed me yet. I can handle the pressure knowing that I'm not alone. I have depended on a few here and there to help me when certain things stress me out or when I need. But I can't depended on them to help me through the hardest times. There will be plenty of those. I never thought I could make it this far and still have my sanity. This road has been very hard and trying and I want to see it to the  end.