I never thought I could...

I never thought I could handle so much pressure; pressure from school and people. I still don't have a handle on it. But no one really knows that I have these feelings because it is hard to see. I have to smile and laugh to keep from crying. I don't like to see my own face if I'm not smiling. God gives me the strength to keep smiling. I put my troubles in his hands praying that he makes it alright. God hasn't failed me yet. I can handle the pressure knowing that I'm not alone. I have depended on a few here and there to help me when certain things stress me out or when I need. But I can't depended on them to help me through the hardest times. There will be plenty of those. I never thought I could make it this far and still have my sanity. This road has been very hard and trying and I want to see it to the  end.

This semester so far has been...

This semester so far has been very tiring. I find myself falling asleep while reading like an old person. A lot of other assignments have been running in with others. I be waiting on Friday to come because I have no classes. For almost two whole years, I have been stuck with Mon.-Friday classes and when I finally  get that break of only four days a week, I'm still trying to ajust even with being so far into the semester. I really caon't wait until it is all over. I love all of my teachers though, but school has reall been taking a toll on me and I'm trying to hang in there.My daughter goes to school as well and it is very hard to make sure that she is doing as she should at school. I wish I could spend more time with her on homework, but that is really trying with no help at home. I'm up so late at night and I have to get up at 5:45am to get her ready for school. I lay down at maybe 1:00am finishing up my own work. I assume at the end of finally finishing out your classes to earn your degree, it's suppose to getmore complicated becasue it's the end. I appreciate all my teachers that have seen me through these tough times and I appreciate the lessons that have taught me, if you don't work hard for it, maybe it ain't worth having. I have gone through the rough patches but I did for me, my daughter, and my family. God blessed me with a lot and I'm not going to waste it. I got my health, loving family, and friends to help support me. It's been along time coming but, now it's time.

I absolutely hate.....

I absolutely hate when I treat people out to dinner they like to get very expensive. This past weekend my best friend had her birthday celebration in North Carolina. We had a ball but my friend he had no money which I knew that before I asked him. We ate out at resturants of course, but he asked me could he get a steak, which was not a problem. Why did he pick the most expensive steak on the menu? It wasn't like he was spending any money. I know if it was me getting the money spent on I would have been deligent with the spending of someone else money. There were other steaks not as pricey as the one he got. So later on that day he kept on complaining about not having any white tank tops to wear under his shirts, I was about to find a Walmart and buy him some, but we were going home the next day. I would have been a fool to buy that for him and still feed his ass too. He had to do without the tank tops because I was done spending money for the rest of the day. The last day, we ate out again before departure and still him and his pricey as stomach wouldn't let up. when I dropped him off at home I was not sad to leave and say nothing. I was very happy because now your mama can feed your ass and I can spend and save my money. the moral of the story is, be deligent when someone else is spending money. Realize that they also have life and maybe a child to feed as well. Money only goes so far when you're not employed. When the time comes around for you to treat them will you give them the same treatment they gave to you?

I'm writing this blog, but I should be......

I'm writing this blog when I should be doing other homework. I keep getting side tracked. Most of the time the side tracks come from the destractions around you. Not that they are bad destractions, but when you have things to do the destractions are really what you want to do.Like watching tv, movies, or maybe just play outside with the kids. right now I should be doing my research but I'm catching up on needed extra credit. I like to blog when I think about it. It's helps me get ride of frustrations that are there because I don't have much of an outlet. I'm a single mom, I can forget about an outlet. But yesturday I did do something with my daughter so that she would feel as if she doesn't have to be stuck up in the house and that was taking her to the park. That was fun. We had company this whole weekend. That was nice. We all went to the park actually. The kids feed the ducks and played on the playground . They had a ball. I slide down the slide with them three times. Today is Sunday but I would rather be playing at the park with the kids instead of doing home work anyday.

In January, I was....

In January, my daughter and I were at home enjoying the snow for a whole week. We were snowed in, but I had plenty of  food cooked. We both dressed ourselves up real warm. Of course I had hot chocolate ready after we finished playing in the snow. I made some homemade chicken noodle soup. As soon as the snow started to melt we were able to return to school. I think we lost about two days of school at that time. Which was fine with me:) During this time I also decided to do some early spring cleaning. I dejunked my house because it started to get a little crowded from things that people had gave me. It isn't that I didn't want it, I had enough stuff and now I have learned to just say," I would take it, but I just don't have any room for it". I don't like to hurt feelings. I try to be as helpful as possible, but I ain't bringing anything else into my house I'm not using. My January was not that busy, but I'm glad it was down time for me to focus on what I needed to do as far as my responsibilities are concerned.

Life takes some funny twists and turns.....

Life takes some funny twists and turns as you get older. By the time you turn 18 years of age, you have to decide if you are going to school or just work a job, any job. In 2000, I started working at a plant (McCord Winn) and I never thought that at this plant I would earn my management skills from there. I earned to pay in three months and I also was the shift leader if our shift leader was absent. Of course the older employees didn't like it but I guess I stood out from the rest. I was very good with my hands. But as time fast forwards to 2003, I started working at Eletrolux, I meet my daughters father working there. I didn't think that within a years time or any time I was going to be a mother. In 2005, I gave birth to my daughter. She changed my life forever. I was a stay at home mom for a year and a half. I went back to work at a plant, but a better job opportunity opened up and it was a fast food place (Dunkin Donuts). I worked there until they let me go and I was able to draw unemployment. While drawing unemployment, I decided that this would be the perfect time to go back to school. Here I am, a student at Tri County Tech. Never thought that I would see the day I would be back in school. It's really funny how life takes some funny twist and turns.

" Sometimes,I feel like a..."

Sometimes I feel like taking risks becasue I'm not getting younger. I am a single mom, and at this poitn it doesn't seem as if I'm going to have anymore children so, I'm ready to start exploring more about life. I have missed a lot being a single mom, and now it is time to do things that I have feared like, sky diving, fly from state-to-state. I want to be free as a bird one day, but for right now I have to do duty first which is be mom. Sometimes, I feel ike a nut and sometimes I don't. But In due time I will be able to do as I please and I won't feel so nutty.