I never thought I could...

I never thought I could handle so much pressure; pressure from school and people. I still don't have a handle on it. But no one really knows that I have these feelings because it is hard to see. I have to smile and laugh to keep from crying. I don't like to see my own face if I'm not smiling. God gives me the strength to keep smiling. I put my troubles in his hands praying that he makes it alright. God hasn't failed me yet. I can handle the pressure knowing that I'm not alone. I have depended on a few here and there to help me when certain things stress me out or when I need. But I can't depended on them to help me through the hardest times. There will be plenty of those. I never thought I could make it this far and still have my sanity. This road has been very hard and trying and I want to see it to the  end.

This semester so far has been...

This semester so far has been very tiring. I find myself falling asleep while reading like an old person. A lot of other assignments have been running in with others. I be waiting on Friday to come because I have no classes. For almost two whole years, I have been stuck with Mon.-Friday classes and when I finally  get that break of only four days a week, I'm still trying to ajust even with being so far into the semester. I really caon't wait until it is all over. I love all of my teachers though, but school has reall been taking a toll on me and I'm trying to hang in there.My daughter goes to school as well and it is very hard to make sure that she is doing as she should at school. I wish I could spend more time with her on homework, but that is really trying with no help at home. I'm up so late at night and I have to get up at 5:45am to get her ready for school. I lay down at maybe 1:00am finishing up my own work. I assume at the end of finally finishing out your classes to earn your degree, it's suppose to getmore complicated becasue it's the end. I appreciate all my teachers that have seen me through these tough times and I appreciate the lessons that have taught me, if you don't work hard for it, maybe it ain't worth having. I have gone through the rough patches but I did for me, my daughter, and my family. God blessed me with a lot and I'm not going to waste it. I got my health, loving family, and friends to help support me. It's been along time coming but, now it's time.

I absolutely hate.....

I absolutely hate when I treat people out to dinner they like to get very expensive. This past weekend my best friend had her birthday celebration in North Carolina. We had a ball but my friend he had no money which I knew that before I asked him. We ate out at resturants of course, but he asked me could he get a steak, which was not a problem. Why did he pick the most expensive steak on the menu? It wasn't like he was spending any money. I know if it was me getting the money spent on I would have been deligent with the spending of someone else money. There were other steaks not as pricey as the one he got. So later on that day he kept on complaining about not having any white tank tops to wear under his shirts, I was about to find a Walmart and buy him some, but we were going home the next day. I would have been a fool to buy that for him and still feed his ass too. He had to do without the tank tops because I was done spending money for the rest of the day. The last day, we ate out again before departure and still him and his pricey as stomach wouldn't let up. when I dropped him off at home I was not sad to leave and say nothing. I was very happy because now your mama can feed your ass and I can spend and save my money. the moral of the story is, be deligent when someone else is spending money. Realize that they also have life and maybe a child to feed as well. Money only goes so far when you're not employed. When the time comes around for you to treat them will you give them the same treatment they gave to you?